When someone talks to you about your deceased best friend telling you stories of how “perfectly” you knew him,
like NO. Why are you lying straight out of your ass?
Dear John,
It’s been awhile. Honestly, I’m sorry. The first few months I was able to handle it better than I thought. Then your birthday came around and I lost it. I started going in denial, pretending that none of it ever happened. Keeping myself distracted with other problems and activities so that at least the stress I felt came from a common situation like work and school- not an empty hole where my best friend used to be. I’ve tried talking it out with people, close mutual friends between you and I and even hanging out with your family- but the best method for me lifting at least a little bit of weight off my shoulders are venting it out. Just as me and to no one in particular but you. It’s so hard eating at In-N-Out without looking around hoping that you are behind the counter ready to take my order. Or even when I’m having a rough day or night, calling you can be uplifting because I can vent my heart out with the confidentiality of it being between just me and you, but also heartbreaking because I know that all I’ll ever get is the voicemail. Why am I writing such a depressing post right now? I don’t know. Maybe because I’ve been pushing this away for the past two months and I cannot hide it any longer, and a girl just needs to find a way to let her heart out at the best time of day.
What really makes someone a best friend to another? There’s so much possible answers to that question. But what you taight me is that it’s someone who doesn’t need to go to ridiculous measures to make me feel like I’m not alone. One who doesn’t judge me by my past or present and just accepts me as I am- no matter how daring or awkward I can be. It felt so nice to know that you were someone who could see me at my worst and still think I’m a beautiful person inside and out. You definitely were the person who wouldn’t let me lose all hope. You are unique in so many ways. Especially the fact that I wake up knowing that you were in my dreams, even though I don’t remember all my dreams, because I wake up happy and satisfied with everything going on.
What I’m trying to say is- I love you and I miss you for eternity, and you are still a huge part of my life everyday. Even if it seems I’m avoiding you. I’m just trying to be the strong person you taught me to be.
Life becomes too difficult when your best friend passes away.
Jonn Scott Flath.
My best friend. My role model.
Today to celebrate, he took me to the place where it all started. Exactly 6 months ago from today on a Sunday to be exact. Ever since then, he has made me genuinely happy every single passing day. Always being there for me in my time of needs. From when my best friend Jonn Flath passed away and I felt so lonely for the longest time because Jonn wasn’t here anymore. To the empty spots in my life where my father should be. To the day where my grandfather passed away. To the nights where my Godsister and cousin passed away as well. Through my health problems. Through my food poisoning days. And even through the roughest times that I am enduring in my current moments. He has never let me forget that life continues and that I can still make the best of it no matter what is going on around me.
He is the reminder in my life that miracles still exist and anyone can get through anything if their heart is set in the right place.
Thank you Cal. Thank you for showing me a different part of the world that I wouldn’t have been able to see by myself. I am lucky to have a friend like you, and even more blessed to be loved by a person as kind-hearted as you. I love you.
MY NEW FAVORITE of Charles Nguyen and my former co-director Anthony Lee. Been repeating this video for the past half hour.
You’re cute. You can say all this stupid stuff about me with all your emotional baggage acting immature when I’m over- and have BEEN over it- for the longest time. You can go ahead and assume your stupid things when you’re actually wrong while your “friends” and the person you call your “best friend” team hop and tell me everything you said about me when I don’t even ask them to. Really comes to show the type of person you are, and I have never even met you nor care if I happen to in the future.
And it’s cute how you avoid me at all times and act all hardcore with the computer keyboard. It’s adorable. :’) This is obviously the only way to contact you, since you put in all the effort to avoid me. How special ;)
Anonymous asked:
why calvin?
Why? Is there a reason that yoU feel I shouldn’t be with him? Because he sure makes me happier than all the assholes I dated who cheated, lied, and treats me different when we’re around other people.
Good luck on trying to convince me I shouldn’t be with Calvin.
